I mentioned in my last blog that I had to catch up on blogging what I have read so today is about Isaiah. I felt like this book has really struck home for me so forgive me in advance for possibly getting emotional! I wasted a lot of years being down on myself for mistakes and poor decisions. Too oftenI felt like I didn't deserve good things or good people in my life. Sometimes this included friends. A few years ago I began to feel as if I couldn't be any lower and that is when the reality hit me. I was being stripped so I could be rebuilt. Like an antique piece of furniture. The beautiful part of this is that I know I have a lot more coming and I look forward to my restructuring...Isaiah pointed all of this out for me.
It begins with the recognition of the need for change and follows with God's desire to teach us His ways. He takes away the earthly things so we will turn to and depend on Him and only Him. God is selfish like that! It is His desire to use us! How often do we want to be used? But I can tell you, He can use me however He please because that means He loves me! He has to cleanse us before that. Sin has to be dealt with. All of the years that I spent being so down on myself and feeling so undeserving, God was simply showing, teaching, and reteaching me until I could wake up and learn the lesson. Why did I keep encountering the same problems over and over? Because I was too stubborn to learn it the first time, the second time, and more! I am pretty stubborn. He knows I have a heart that belongs to Him even if it doesn't perform perfectly for Him all the time.
God wants us to enjoy peace. He knows what our lives need to be peaceful and He is the only one who has the qualifications to make those decisions. One thing I have learned in the recent years of my life is when I can't seem to figure out why something won't go my way is to stop, take a step back and turn back to asking God to take the wheel. Trust, faith and pixie dust, right?
I have a lot more to say about Isaiah as it relates to the past and future, but I am pretty certain it is too much to fit into one blog, so I will leave this to be continued!